a pile of thoughts

perseverance

It's been such a long time since my last entry that it feels a bit strange making time to sit down in front of the screen and sort out my th...

2020/07/25 00:40

update

I've been away for a long time so I don't know if there is anyone still reading this blog, but in case anyone's wondering, I wanted to let y...

2017/06/15 10:59

is it so wrong to eat meat?

I haven't written here in a looong time, and so much happened while I was away that I'm not sure why I'm here to write about whether it's ri...

2016/06/25 09:41

every life

Two weeks ago, we visited a hospital far in the mountains where they took care of children who were mentally and physically handicapped seve...

2015/09/12 17:30

sacrifice

-- Sacrifice is the spirit of love Summer vacation has almost come to an end, and as I traveled back, I finished reading 犠牲(sacrifice) wri...

2015/08/22 19:57

the cards we are dealt

We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand. -- Randy Pausch I read the rest of the book (Into the Wild) while I t...

2015/08/03 12:00

into the wild

Since I last wrote, I went through training at the neurosurgery and anesthesiology departments, and finally our first term has ended.  As so...

2015/07/31 20:40

singing in the rain

It's been raining almost every single day where I live, I haven't been able to sleep well for whatever reason, but the training goes on, and...

2015/06/25 22:47

limited time

It's been a long time since I wrote last.  I actually glanced through my last couple of entries, and to tell the truth, I feel a bit embarra...

2015/04/22 20:51

big dreams

Last night, we had a welcome party for new students, and their big dreams reminded me of my own dream I'd had when I entered med school. ...

2014/10/02 19:59

leaving a mark

I was folding a paper crane today and suddenly wondered who it was that had first created it.  I don't know how many times I've folded a pap...

2014/08/17 01:40

three minutes

All I've been writing about lately has been my shadowing experiences but here's another one.  If anyone has felt angry or even hurt by a doc...

2014/07/15 16:14

0~1 year olds

A quick note of nursery shadowing round 2: 1. Kids can tell if you're a stranger from when they're around a couple months old. 2. Kids a...

2014/07/04 19:18

two year olds

I still remember about the day I stopped crying at nursery school.  Until then, I think I stayed by the glass door and cried as I watched my...

2014/06/28 01:02

just the way we are

In today's result-oriented system, almost everything is conditional.  To be worthy, we have to be good at something.  With nothing to be pro...

2014/06/23 21:04

if i die tomorrow

Another old draft (I've been sorting out my drafts lately): I daydream daily.  And I sometimes imagine myself being a mother of a small ch...

2014/06/13 23:55

reunion

This was an entry dated July 8, 2013, around the time I went on hiatus.  Found it in my drafts: Without the time I spent in New Zealand, I...

2014/06/12 00:43

formula of life

Yesterday, I had a role playing class in which I had to play the role of a doctor who had to persuade his unconfident patient to work on los...

2014/05/31 23:21

ocd & perfectionism

If anyone remembers the post about my perfectionism, I am still suffering the same "symptoms" though they have become better gradually.  I'm...

2014/05/29 23:06

falling in love at 85

Today, I was sorting out my mailbox and some old messages I sent to my crush (during fights) came up.  I was terrified.  Some messages were ...

2014/05/25 21:33

continuing and gaining trust

（大切なのは）当たり前のことを当たり前でないくらいやり続けること (The important thing is) to continue doing ordinary things for an extraordinary period of time. - Shinya...

2014/05/24 20:42

patience and tolerance

An old draft -- posting because it reminds me of important stuff: I've noticed lately that it gets harder and harder to stay friends with ...

2014/05/23 21:59

sense of worthiness

Tonight, I listened to  this talk by Brene Brown, recommended by a friend.  I've mentioned her book a couple of posts ago, and what I didn'...

2014/05/09 01:07

no need to give up

Where there's a will, there's a way When I was around twenty, I was invited over to my friend's place where she homestayed for just over a...

2014/05/05 21:38

iron will

"That's not your duty.  That's your ambition." Tonight, I watched The Iron Lady, the movie about Margaret Thatcher.  I thought its main fo...

2014/04/27 21:53