2007/07/03 18:34July 3 At the boundary between ？？？ Lately I've been thinking we, all li ving creatures, are the hero or heroine of their own stories. Perhaps you are in a story like a great romance novel, maybe suspense, comedy, or mystery? Probably you？think it's just a non-fiction novel like biography that is written chronically. Or perhaps you don't think you are a hero at all.？？？ ？？ Once in a while I wake up... [続きを読む]

2007/06/08 12:54June 8 ？？？？ The petals are？waiting patiently？in？their dark room s？for many days？until？when the birds sing and the sun-lights kno ck the door to ask them to dance together. Then？they stretch their b ody and proudly come out under the bright light.？？？ A little gir l？picked one flower and said？"he loves me, loves me not...&qu ot; as？she pulled petals off a flower, Perhaps it's the？prologue.. . [続きを読む]

2007/04/14 18:20April 14 Warm day, warm heart？？ ？？？Even a？slightest change in your heart causes a big change in your life. When you start to feel odor of spring, an affection awakes from deep sleep in your heart.？It grows in the mild days of spring and when the？flush of greenness and？th e colorful flowers bloom, the affection light up your heart.？It？ge ntly shines on you by reflecting the warm lights of your love... [続きを読む]

2007/03/09 13:08March 9 One tale？？ When you？came into the world？you were given an empty book inside of you,？and the？moment you started to collect？fragments of this world around you,？you found a pen to fill out your book day by day and little by little.？？？ I realized that I am getting 24 this April. Time passes so fast and sometimes I feel I skip many pages and write only remarkable things once in a long while,... [続きを読む]

2007/02/15 10:31February 15 Garden？？ When you need a place where you can put away your importa nt things,？like dreams and secrets, where woud you choose? Is it in a closet? In？a drawer? ？？ I secretly put them away under my p illow. I made a little garden there. Sometimes, at night after I turn off the light and burn candles I？put my pillow to one side？and ope n the gate. Once？I？release the shadows into the air, my hid... [続きを読む]

2006/12/06 23:56December 6 Blue sky？？？ Grab？your huge imaginative paintbrush and do a pai nting on the boundless blue blue sky!？？ It's not a fear, nor an an xiety, neither a turmoil. But when？I have butterflies in my stomach and my heart beats rapidly, I feel？an urge to do something. Oneday I sat back on my comfortable chair, stretched my arms, then I saw the s ky through windowpane. It？was as if a huge painting？hung... [続きを読む]

2006/12/02 22:49December 2 ？？ Missed a few weeks, but？during？the hard working days many t houghts came up to my mind.？I simply didn't want to write down any o f them. ？？？ It is really hard to lose my friends, however to los e those who think they are my "friends" isn't hard at all, o r rather it maks me happy. Fortunately, I managed to lose one of them, an annoying,？disgusting man. I know there is little peop... [続きを読む]

2006/11/06 23:29November 6 Imagination？x？fear x hatred？"Don't you ever imagine things differently from what they are?" -Anne Shirley-？？？ Working for my dad isn't that bad, but？to talk？about it is something I di slike. I have my reason why I am working for him. It's not that I like this job, nor I couldn't get any jobs. When I got a job shortly after I came back from Europe, I was about to move out and to st... [続きを読む]

2006/10/15 13:32October 15 Universe？？？ It is not easy to know who exactly I am.There are so many stuffs that？make？this Moemi,？it's all？small but？every elements are very？important.？Everytime？people ask me who I am, ？I？think of myself.？？？ Who am I?？？？ ？I am Moemi. My name is the best thing to show who i am. But is it enough? ...No. Alt hough my name？has a special, a sort of enchanted, power to makes me feel... [続きを読む]

2006/09/17 23:14September 17 ？？ Friends of the opposite sex. It is a difficult thing.？？？ Everyday, you keep walking？up the street, just looking ahead and you never look off.？Now you are walking as usual？but suddenly something caught your eyes and turned around, looked at？a thing from a different angle, You realize what you have missed and？purr with pleasure at your discovery, but other times you regret. ？？？This i... [続きを読む]

2006/08/28 00:19August 27 ？？ A line of tear slowly slipped down？my cheek as I woke up. Was it a dream?？？？ He died in？1990. That summer, I was in a cast el on the hill with？Haward？and his family.？？ A few years befor e he died, I？creeped out of my house at night since I heard the star s calling me. I started walking under the thousands of stars, followin g the loadstar.？The sun rose and ？I was wandering about in th... [続きを読む]

2006/08/19 21:45August 19 ？？ In the early afternoon I？was sitting？on the ground.？？ ？ I rarely do？this outside, but when I lit the incense stick I felt the sun was calling me.I put on my shoes and open the door. It was a sunny afternoon,？as if？the sun was？asserting its power by shinin g on the earth. As I opened the front door, I？felt the dazzling ligh t enfolded me,？and the sun took me to？the world of painting. ... [続きを読む]

2006/08/12 23:20August 12 A？rainy day？and the sounds？？？ My dad's factory, it is filled with thunderous sounds.Sounds of gas welding, hitting metals with ham mer, cutting pipes, screw-cutting lathe, overhead traveling crane, com pressor, and so on. Loud, annoying sounds.？？？ There was a thunde r rumbling. Then it started raining, and again thunder rumblings.？ ？？ Working around the entrance of the factory, all the soun... [続きを読む]

2006/06/25 23:31June 25 A breath of air？One sunny early evining, when the sun started going in, the sky turned red.I was walking down the street, threading my way through a crowd and bustle, I felt the wind fell silent. The moment, I found the huge glowing sun in front of me, shining on the earth. It was so beautiful and impressive so that I froze and simply forgot to b reathe. No sounds came to my ears,？but onlt？the s... [続きを読む]

2006/06/22 21:49June 21 ？？？Something was missing for a long long time. While I was talki ng with my friend, I realized？it was？a part of myself.？？？？ He said I deserved to be treated like an angel. At the very moment, I heard a voice called me？'angel.' It was a quater English man？who my heart？belongs to until I take the last count. He was one of desti nies, we first met at a restaurant when I was five and he was ... [続きを読む]

2006/06/17 23:10June 17 ？？ I received an invitation from my high school？a while ago.？ ？ And last Sunday, i？took my first step on my？high school in 4 ye ars.？I realized I was missing it？so much. When i passed through th e school gate, some strange feeling came up. It was like,？I was fina lly back to the place I？ belong, could be home,？with a kind of mel ancholy mood and joy altogether. ？？？ I attended graduate's ... [続きを読む]

2006/06/04 19:29June 4 ？？ When I think too much,？I feel like？standing in the thick fo g.？and I can't see anything. Everything loose thier color; the world of gray. I was in that world for way too long time. The other day, on e of my friend？suggested to upgrade my attitude？toword everything. ？How? I was trying my best to make things better. He just didn't kn ow it.？？？ I've been never happy to sit, cry and be depre... [続きを読む]

2006/05/28 18:03May 28 ？？ I have too much on my mind and cannot put them into words. This is one of the worst days in my life. All I know is that everything wa s my fault and it's too late now.... [続きを読む]

2006/05/28 00:16May 27 ？？ "I'm a loser." said my friend. What did he mean? We were not talking about something wins or？not. I don't know why, but his word is somehow hanging over my head.？I think only games have wi n and loss. I believe？there are people who？consider everyday their last, but life sn't about win and loss. It is more likely to be consi dered a big lesson. ？？？ Here is my favorite quote: &qu... [続きを読む]

2006/05/25 00:01May 24 ？？ I talked with my friend the other day, but I couldn't be nice t o him. Every time we talk, I feel？this strange feeling and？it make s me mad. I？simply want to be nice to him, because he is always nice to me. I want to be able to feel he is my friend, but he is too speci al to me.？ ？I am selfish.？？？ The perishable heart is like a clear glass. I feel everything？ too directly and strongly？... [続きを読む]

2006/05/17 00:33May 16 ？？ I''m Moemi Okubo, and this is what I''ve been thinking about. ？？ The time passes and I get old, as？I get old？I change. But I am still the same person, Moemi Okubo.？I？don''t really remember wh at i was doing in my past. I forgot most of all days in the kindergart en,？elementary school, or junior high school, as if it？didn''t exi st.？Things happen to remind me of something from my piece of memorie s which... [続きを読む]

2006/05/16 00:53May 15 Journal entry one.？？ My life has changed after coming back from Malta,？rather it''s me that''s？changed. The tiny island, was like a heaven to me. I was away from home, family, work,？etc. I ran away from？reality.？？ Last year, Feburary 7, I was？back to？my house, back to reality. Since then, ？I seemed to be a heroine of dull thick book that nobody wanted to read. Things？went worse？several months later,... [続きを読む]